My day started off fantastic.  I went early morning shopping with Aunt Denise, didn't get everything I needed, but I took care of a couple people.  Then I picked up the bag from Kristina so I could be on duty today.  The beginning of the day went really well, it was kinda nice to have some time to myself so I could get stuff done.  I was on a roll until I actually started doing this Data Comm project that I have to present on Monday.  It just made me sad.  For some reason, I'm stuck...and I can't bring myself to finish the damn thing.  It's so boring and frustrating.  If the material were the slightest bit interesting, it wouldn't be so bad.

So, I decided to finally turn on the Husker game when it was around half time, I was just watching it in the background while I was doing my homework, and then something magical happened.  I started to get interested in the game.  It sucks to have to sit here and watch a game by yourself...when you know that almost everyone close to you was at that game, having the bestest time ever.  This brought me back to the old thought of..."why couldn't I have gone to school in Lincoln, and be at this game right now"  ...so, whenever I start thinking about how I couldn't go to UNL, it just kinda pisses me off.  It took me a while, but I'm very happy here at UNO, I love my orchestra, band and RA job here...but there so many fantastic reasons to go to Lincoln.  I'd so stupid that it still affects me, but it just does.  My life would be so different down there.  But then again, I've had alot of great things happen to me here.  I'm not gonna mess with myself by thinking about it anymore, but ya...that brought me down another notch.

Grandma and Aunt Denise came over for dinner tonight, and it was nice to have some human contact...but it just didn't do it for me.  I got several calls on the duty phone then...so I had to go take care of that, and shortly after that, they left...and I still felt the same.

Tomorrow is our division playoff game, I think Angela and I are the only cymbals.  I would be excited to go...except it's just going to be an embarrassment.  We don't have a show...we're just standing there...looking stupid.  I hope it's a quick game, because it's a complete waste of my time.  Atleast my friends will be there, so it probably won't be as bad once I get there tomorrow...I'm just in such a negative mood right now.

I have an hour before I can go to sleep...but I have a feeling I'll just be thinking, and I won't be able to.  And if I get a call on the duty phone after I fall asleep...I have a feeling that poor person isn't going to see a very happy side of Amber.  Jeesh...what has gotten into me.

Anyway...maybe I should just stop writing.  This is the longest, saddest, and ridiculous post ever for me.  But for some unknown reason, it just feels better to write this crap out.  I feel better all ready.  Good thing nobody reads Xanga anymore...and for those of you who read this...I'm sorry to put you through that.

Good Night...Amber :o/

Jeez, it's been forever since I've updated. Once again, I'm in the office and have nothing better to do than write on xanga and give boring updates of my life.  I'm so exhausted today, I don't know if I'm starting to get sick or what, but I went to bed earlier than normal last night and I took a 2 hour nap this morning instead of doin my homework.  Something must be wrong with me.  That 4 day weekend wasn't near enough, I need like 2 weeks to recoup.  Anyway, whatever.

Monday night the drumline went to Valas Pumpkin Patch.  It was pretty fun except for the one person that was there (sara know's what i'm talking about.) Then Carolyn, Angela and I went to "Oktoberfest" at KJ's.  That was interesting, but fun.

Tuesday Alison and I went to Lincoln to see RENT.  It was amazing of course.  And I got to see Justin, which is always exciting! :o)  Just as we were leaving, before I even got on the interstate, I got an f'n speeding ticket.  This is my second one, and I've already taken that STOP class two years ago.  Anyway, that sucked.

Last night Sara let me borrow this really sweet violin book.  I only know how one of the songs goes, but I can't wait to play through it.  And she made me copies of two cd's, which I haven't listed to yet, but I'm excited.  So thanks Sara!

Tomorrow is Friday, woo hoo! I don't think I have any actual plans for tomorrow night, and I don't think I want to make any.  Maybe later in the night I'd like to go out, but after I get off work at 5, I want some serious alone time, just away from people.  Playing my Violin is always so relaxing (as long as I don't get frustrated) and maybe I'll take a nice hot bath...omg, that sounds amazing.

Anyway, that's all I got.

Luv,
Amber